Its hurt .

First of , Sorry if i had to wrote in Eng .

Im okayh . But Im not . I dont have any problem , But I do . I just dont want to admit it . Im a person with huge heart and along with a huge heart comes a HUGE ego . Yea , I admit it . So I dont want to take and admit it as a problemo . Some ppl on fb keep on asking me why Im rarely onl nowadays . You must wondering why 'rara-yang-hari-hari-onl-pesbuk-tak-online' . Is it ? Yaa , this is one of the reason babe . Its not even something to be a problemo but I just cantfuckinstopthinkingaboutit . Got it ? ;(

Dude ,as much I want to talk to you , I still cant . As much as I want to take your calls or text my hands wont cooperate . I dont know what to say to you , what to talk about or how to talk to you even . I dont know how to answer your question . Thats is why Im ignored all calls and text that you made .

                                    

He send this to me this just now :

We spent good and hard times together before and now that we're separating , its really sad . I miss you and I want to see you . I feel like something is missing when you're not with me . I wish you could come back to me but I know you wont . I just hope when we meet again one day , please dont erase your beautiful smile and just hold my hand . I'll never let it go anymore . I swear I wont let you go twice . Thats my promise .

* And yea once I finished read the last line , it bursting mytears down like a razor blade . Its blurry ! I dont want to look over it but as soon as  I did I would think back about all the things that are happening . But yaa , it just a memories now dude . You're right , I wont come back to you ;') .. 

Me :

Dude , I may cheat on you . I mean maybe . But seriously I dont know why I did it cuz this is all what I want to do actually . So I just can say Im sorry . Dont keep on hoping on me . Please just let it go and find someone which is better and better than me . Btw , thank you for being such a supportive boyfriend from the start . I just dont think that we should being together . 

Well dude , you're on last semester now and you'll be grad soon . Wish you the best of luck ezy . I cant be beside you , Im just going seventeeen and you're already twentyone . I just think that I dont deserve you . Maybe . Im sorry . 

 * Today 27nov  , which is remind me of the date that ive been coupled with sakib  . Yang manis hanya sesaat cuma , selebihnya dusta . Terima kasih heartbreaker , kau mengajar aku erti CINTA palsu . Pengajaran yang cukup bermakna buat diri aku . Takkan pernah aku lupa seumur hidup . TERIMA KASIH ;) . Aku sentiasa doakan kau bahagia dengan syida ;)